Thursday, April 30, 2009

Trials make you stronger!
So this is going to be a hard post. I am not really sure what I am going to say so here goes. This past Tue I went to the Doctor and had an ultra sound and the worst happened. The tech took a bunch of pictures and said nothing to me. At that point I know what was happening. She left the room and said she would be back with the doctor. Well after waiting 15 min. the nurse came in and said the Doctor was out of the office and he would look at the ultra sound and call me the next day. Well from that time to the next day at 5 was the longest 26 hours of my life. Lots of crying and lots of wondering why. Well now today I went into the doctors so he could talk with me. Well I am back from that and it was hard. Lots of crying! Well he said we were going to do 1 more blood test but he was sure I was having a miscarriage. So we scheduled a D&C for tomorrow. So please keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I will need it! I am really struggling REALLY! Thanks for all the kind words that and prayers so far! I will need a lot of good friends this next month or so. So I will thank all of you ahead of time. Hopefully this makes sense I am still in shock myself.

17 comments:

Kelsie said...

i will keep you in my prayers. your such a beautiful person and i hope the best for you and your lovely family.

Mandy said...

I'm so sorry to hear that Brooke. I had 2 miscarriages before I had my twins and it is definitely very hard to deal with. If I can do anything I would love to help. I think what helped me was knowing that my body was rejecting the pregnancy for a reason. Maybe the baby would have health issues or die at birth or something that the Lord knew I couldn't handle. I know it's hard and I'm truly sorry. It will get better.

Kalene said...

I will bring you a treat- yogaberry?? Hang in there...

Natalie said...

Brooke I am so sorry. I admire you for talking about such a hard thing. Here is a scripture for you.

1Nephi 16-17 I know that he loveth his children, Nevertheless, I do not know the meaning of all things.

This scripture has giving me lots of comfort and its a scripture that has changed my perspective on my own trials. We will never know in this life why heavenly father allows us to endure things that are so difficult but we do know that He loves us. He is mindful of us and especially you at this time.

I will be thinking of you and again I'm so sorry!

Momma Dianna said...

I'm so sorry again Brooke. I agree with with your friend Mandy said for sure. It's thinking like that that will see you though the hard times with lots of praying for comfort and family and friends for support. I hope everything goes as well as it can tomorrow and that you know that you have a lot of people thinking about you and praying for your family to heal from this devastating loss.

Cami Epperson said...

Oh Brooke... I'm so sorry. Makes me want to cry right now because I know how much you wanted that baby. Easier said than taken, but it is for a reason. My mom had a couple of miscarriages and always said that some spirits only needed a body, no matter how small. You will be able to mother that baby someday. Hang in there. I'll keep in touch. Love you!

Tanner and Shasta said...

I'm so very sorry, my heart aches for you right now. I'll be thinking about you. Lots of love to you!

Linda Kincaid said...

I am so sorry for your loss, but like you said trails make us stronger. This will bring your family closer than its ever been. With sorrow comes joy! Bryten :) Your in our prayers Love you

Erin Nicole said...

I can't stop thinking about you... It's so hard to understand why these things happen... but you will see that baby again some day... and you will touch many people along the way through this hard expereince. Big giant hug..

Kristi & Austin said...

thinking about you Brooke, i have gone through this my self and its a tough thing, but you will make it through. I know you will! i love you!

Amber said...

Oh Brooke I'm so sorry. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through. But I know it must be so hard for you. My heart aches for you. You will be in my prayers. Love, Amber

Caroline said...

Oh dear brooke, i am so sorry, I wish I could do something to help you feel better, I can only imagine how hard this must be for you, trust in the Lord for He knows the bigger picture and He knows what you can handle, I hope that doesn't sound trite but I know you will see that baby again! Thank goodness for our beliefs and the promises the Lord has made to us, trust in Him! I will keep you in my prayers and please call me if you need anything, I will plan on dropping off your book on Wednesday unless you don't want visitors, i will check back with you!

Jack and Nicci said...

Brooke and Riley, all I can say is I'm sorry!! My thoughts are with you. Have faith that you will have the strength you need to handle whatever happens.

xx

Elisabeth (and Tyler) said...

Oh, Brooke. My heart goes out to your sweet little family.. I'm praying for you guys!

Landvatter Family said...

I am so sorry to hear that. Just know that if you need anything I am here for you guys.

Wakefield Family said...

I am so sorry sis:( I wish I was there to help and lift. The Lord knows you and this is super hard. I am so sorry and hope you keep me posted on what I can do for you.

Beth

Josh and Emily said...

Brooke! I am so sorry! I will definitely keep you in my prayers. I know you must be going through a tough time right now. So many people love you!